Question regarding guru’s and what my next best steps are.

cibi101

Hello forum members.

I’m learning Sri Vidya from a non devipuram sampradaya. I am unhappy with a few things so I wanted to ask for guidance on these things.

My guru is well learned and has undergone his poorna abishekam but I am unhappy with the way he’s been teaching me. I know that I am supposed to have complete faith and confidence in my guru but i still have my doubts and am willing to admit that me asking these questions is a result of my own ignorance and immaturity.

he expects large sums of money, which is understandable since he’s a family man and has needs, and the world revolves around money. I am a college student but my father is willing to pay for me to learn Sri Vidya properly. I wouldn’t have any issue if he taught me things regularly. I keep myself free and constantly ask to learn and he promises to teach but classes do not happen often. He tells others about how I am a great student who is intense and dedicated with my sadhana but that seems meaningless if I don’t learn anything.

These are the things I’ve learned of the year and a half I’ve been with him:

Gotten ganapati, bala, varahi, shyamala mula mantras

Ganapathi puja, Lalitha Lagu puja with khadgamala, sahasranaamam and a bunch of Veda suktams.

I don’t expect to learn everything at once and be handed all the mantras in Sri Vidya immediately but I would like to learn something. With my thirst for knowledge and intensity in Sadhana I feel that under a different guru or learning independantly (not ideal) I could do a lot more. Even if I can’t recieve panchadasi I don’t care I wouldn’t mind staying with Bala and learning her Vidya thoroughly and just practicing that (I love Bala). I don’t have the money or time to travel to Devipuram and learn everything so I am feeling insanely lost. I’ve also finished my Bala mantra purashcharanam with the homam and everything. (for which we spent multiple laks, and he wasn’t clear about how much money it was plus take so he kept saying more and I feel like he may be taking advantage of me and my father). If I was learning things regularly I wouldn’t mind paying, but I am giving dakshina just for him to exist. I would love to receive advice from the learned teachers associatied with Devipuram. Am I being immature? What the best course of action?

Thank you for your time

HRS

cibi101

There is no way on earth that for Purascharana you need to "pay" money to you Guru. You do the purascharana yourself. Who is this person? If you can't publically say it, give some hint. Can you share their website?

If I have any information about him, I will share with you. I know so many fraud organisations (all thanks to my network of acquaintances) who are doing the adharma of mooching money off people in the name of Sri Vidya - they are adharmic people and will suffer.

The first level course of Devipuram is free/donation based. Guruji never siphoned off money from people - this is how a Guru should be per shastras. Guru Amma never ever asks for money from people. Only the reasonable fees (to cover the costs) is charged for the level 2 and 3.

P.S. All these thoughts are mine and Devipuram or it's trust has nothing to do with it.

If you want to talk about it in private, message me on divinityhealing21@gmail.com.

cibi101

It also may be important to note I haven’t received guru Paduka mantra from him

nilasara

I donated 100 dollars twice to Swami Amrita in 2007. I lost my job and mentioned it. He said, "I am an old man and I have no need for money," and he immediately gave me back $200 dolllars.