I have been suffering a crisis throughout my life and undergone through extreme hardship in the last 10+ years.

I don't know if I have a mental (disorder) condition or have been possessed by a spirit.

For example, in 2012 something put me in an illusion which caused me to remove something from my head within that illusion although technically it's Impossible and because of this, this opened a portal in my head through which certain things entered and made me an ailing person. The same time I went to study a course online around 2012 and that thing which entered me changed my reality from giving me knowledge from I don't have to making me do things which I am not aware of, from making me experiencing bad things that I never had to doing mantras which I'm not used to. I received a Hanuman mantra and upon being happy with this receipt, something blocked my head & heart chakra. What happened as a result was this thing not just changed my perception like the image of the home sounds different, but it also blocked my mind to even later preventing me from doing prayer. Later, it kept controlling me, preventing me from even performing prayers etc to putting me in an illusion where I find myself trapped in a body of illusion.

Prior to this 2012, my reality kept on shifting despite I was fine in my childhood days. I recently underwent an MRI scan to check if there's something wrong with my head but it turned out fine. However something existed me when going into the scan room.

It has blocked me, prevents me from reading, feel happy, gives me problems & abilities that I didn't had or existed before. This also has affected my parents.

I wish to study but it doesn't allow me to. Unbelievably it set me up in such manner that through my forehead it's doing something which broke my laptop, controlling people, blocking my memory. After this got into me, doing basic mantras like om namo nārāyaṇāya put me in either big trouble or a trap of illusion every time I go about doing this. No prayer that I know seems to have any effect to solve this.

When I went to the exams in 2009 prior to this episode, it blocked my mind prior to this and caused me to be dull mind. Sometimes when playing game in childhood, something would block my mind. When as I toddler, it created a false reality, gave me certain abilities and made me do certain things with my mind to my legs which in turn, turned my legs small. Just by talking in the house would cause me issues or shift the reality. Like it wouldn't allow me to talk about science nor partake into things that I like.

I want a mantra that could help me solve my problem, like- (1) remove what has gotten in me, (2) unblock my head/mind which is working due to this, (3) should lead me to know what is this and how solve this - to whom should approach to seek help. Whether it's a medical issue or spirit possession etc that should help me to be delivered from this misery.

I would appreciate if you could provide me with a mantra that could help me get out this, solving my current issues.

I also have a lot of questions, like what is this. What should I do, where should I go to seek help to etc - I wish also that if possible, I get a mantra that could address those questions.